What can I say? Where do I start? It's awesome being on the road. No; it's amazing, just not being at home, doing the same thing every day, wishing we were out there doing it, wondering what it would be like. I'm sitting in Ro's moms home, out on the patio, listening to the creatures of the night chatting, chirping, yapping away. I could not ask for a better background noise. Feels like Fairyland. Woods, beautiful flowers and a ton of fresh air.
I don't even know how long it's been, it seems like a month but I know it's only been two weeks or so since we hit the road. Our daily routine...It's either being in the van, being at a club or being at someones home or at a cheap hotel. Any chance I get I'm out and about investigating a town, strolling through the park; going for a walk or just sitting outside looking at the sky, the stars or the beautiful landscape. I ove it. When in the van I'm mostly up reading, or doing something on the computer. Try not to eat non-stop; I like food way too much especially when I'm bored or overly excited. The rest of the band (except the driver) seems to fall into a coma the minute we are hitting the road, it's funny as hell. I really liked Florida, staying at Janice's house; what's not to like. I actually thought about moving to FL but once you're in LA it's hard to leave and I'm not even sure why that is. NYC is my favorite city in the world and I'm not even sure I would go back there at this time in my life. No clubs left, no scene. Just good food. Plus, I don't long for a shoebox to live in. lol. Back to the tour; the shows are as inconsistent as the stock market and it makes things always more interesting and challenging, you never know what to expect. People always say they show up but people like to talk the talk when it comes to the walking part their legs seem to be gone missing. I don't care either way, it doesn't impress me when someone sends me an e-mail telling me they'll be at the show, not until I actually see them there. It's OK to say no. Not that I've never heard that before. Rejection is part of the game and god knows it ain't stopping me from what I want. I'm kinda immune to it.
Staying at Kristy's house was like a vacation, I was actually really sad when we left. Love them very much and the dogs. We are finally picking up, the next couple of weeks are busy and that's a very good thing. I thought I'd be working a lot on music but so far it hasn't been that inspiring nor convenient to set up my little station and go nuts. I need my creative space. But it's all good. I tend to stack it all inside and bust out 5 tunes all at once. I'm not a 100% sure where the new album is going as of yet I just know that I will not look or sound like all the other bands out there right now just to fit in. No offense to anyone out there but honestly, most bands follow a trend, want to fit in. It's just one of those things as an artist. I find my look, my style than get bored of it and want to change but whenever I force it it just doesn't come naturally. So I'm just going with the flow in between transitioning into something bigger and better. Evolve. Expand. Allow for it to happen naturally, I let inspiration lead me. We've been told our music is so much bigger and better than our look and I do agree in a way. However, I get a ton of compliments on my style all the time. I dug my blood fest, my broken baby dolls, my glitter, my phase of destruction and hell. I loved my tutu's, my pretty ugly in pink, my extensions, I still do. I keep reinventing and really ache for something subtle yet drastic. If I see one more guy with an Affliction shirt onstage I'm gonna puke. It's so unoriginal and overdone. The last photo shoot we did we tried to "tone it down a bit I'm open minded. I try everything once. But looking at those pictures, we still look somewhat dark cause that's who we are. So hell with it. Why try to be something you're not just to please WHO? I'm getting my healthy rage back I love it. I've never been one who likes to play it safe and being out on the road, doing the DIY thing definitely brings me back to my core. To a very sincere, honest and humble yet rebellious place.
I know I'm rambling, it's those night creatures cheering me on...lol. I'm just extremely excited to be out here. To not be home. To do something different. To find out who I am now, where I am now. To learn what works and what doesn't. You can read all the books in the world. You want to learn, you gotta get down and dirty. Just Do It.
I hope you can appreciate the silence in between my long blogs. That's just how I roll. It's all or nothing, also know that if I got nothing to say, I won't bore you with a whole lot of nothing.
Enjoy the silence while it lasts, I'll be back soon .Muhahahahahaha
xoxoxo
JVB
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